I really miss you so much dad...
Why you're not here for me when ever i wanna share my Joy & Pain?
Why i wasn't close with him when he's around? Why i never tell him how much i love him, How much i appreciate things that he done for me and our family? Why is everything is too late? Why? Why? Why?

Million of questions with no answer....


To my Dearest Father,

No matter where you are, I'll always pray for you.
I really appreciate what you gave to us...
I'm really proud of you Dad!

I love you Dad so much



Dearest Daughter,
Nichole

Happy Chinese New Year who celebrate CNY... Hereby to wish every1 have a prosperous Ox Year.

As usual for all Youngsters, money minded...Desperately to work especially on Public Holiday!
Feel so lonely in office when you have to work during your celebration, I was working last year but doesn't feel the pinch that badly but not this year...

CNY should be time when you're happy to welcome a new year, start everything new... New life, New Cloths, New behaviour & new Attitude! But I'm feeling the opposite way...

Quite a lots of things went through my mind today, especially for family!

How many time that you spend with your family especially with those relative or grandparents who are getting older every year... Feel sad if anyone past away, but when they alive... What have you done for them?
Not even spending time with them, show some care for them... By end of the day what you can do is only feeling sad or depress when they leave! Is this what you wan?

"No that's not we mean but we're busy with my own work!"
Have you ever think that when your parent brought you up with your siblings what were they doing?

They work, they take care of you, and your siblings as well as the house.... Do they do nothing at that time?

Anyway, this is those question that i ask myself all the time but it doesn't drive any result...
I'll always give myself all type of excuses to escape but when it come to Chinese New Year this kind of things really hit into my mind...

Maybe is my age is increasing, feeling lonely at times.... Friend wasn't helpful sometimes, don know who to trust... Have to become a pussy lick er to survive in the society, only feel comfortable when back home.. with family! No Drama, no fake smile & entertain those people who irritating...

Hi every1, Happy new Year...

Thank you so much for those who take care of me and to who care about me as well... I really had a great 2008 doing wat i'm doing now, sharing what i have and giving what i should give up or should give out...

Within 2008 alot of shits happen... some of them i created myself some of them cleaning up for others... Ppl who know me, Those shits i mention is my fault!!

2009 is here now, what is my new year resolution...
hmmm... More satisfaction maybe!!
Lose weight maybe... but with the 'Diet' i'm on now, it's not going to work!!
Kinda lonely ya... don know how to put my feeling in words, maybe this is not wat i wan or this is not the only things i wan... I don know!!
Keep on targetting guys to check any1 of those is my Guardian Angel??
Can any1 tell me who's my Guardian Angel? Can any1 be my guardian angel??
Anyway, Kinda give up... More hope i have the easier i'll be dissapointed!!

Can't really differentciate between 2008 & 2009 except the date ends with '09...
But anyway this kind of confusing feeling is always on, don bother... no big deal about it at all!!